As I approach the middle of 2010 with only a couple of festival screenings under my belt for my latest short film, “Rhythm of Causality”, I am reminded once again that being a filmmaker isn’t easy.
As the festival submissions start to dwindle and I have less and less to hear back from, certain thoughts start to invade my mind: “This was the short based on my feature.” “This is the largest scale short I’ve ever made.” “This is the one that I thought best represented my work.” “So few have been able to see it!” “Why oh why God does this happen to me??????”
Okay. Slight exaggeration. But only slight. I know being a filmmaker isn’t effortless. I’ve known this all along. And I made the conscious decision to go after this dream with the full knowledge that it is difficult, heart-breaking, risky, hurtful, and pretentious but then… it’s also wonderful, thoughtful, creative, honest, and everything I’ve ever wanted for my life.
So, I take the good with the bad.
I guess that’s what life is all about. We weigh our options. We make our choices and if we go for the hard stuff, we decide if the struggle is worth it.
And then we keep on truckin’.
Guess it’s time to write the next short…