I recently encountered someone who would say one thing about himself but then his actions would completely contradict exactly what he said. I kept noticing it and started to think about it. Was he delusional? In denial? Or just full of shit and perhaps did or did not know it?
But then, as I was driving, I was struck with a memory about myself.
When I was in my mid-late twenties several years back, I was dating regularly. Some relationships lasted a few months, others not even close, but the point is, I was dating. I remember, however, telling guys that I didn’t date much and I wasn’t really looking for a relationship. I didn’t tell them this to pull a fast one on them. I wholeheartedly believed it… or so I thought until I realized something one day.
I had this image of myself in my head that wasn’t true in reality, based on what I actually did. I thought of myself one way, perhaps the way I wanted to be, but I wasn’t actually that way.
And I remember that when I realized this, it was like the clouds parted and I was enlightened.
So, I cut this guy some slack because I really do think he thinks one way about himself without being conscious about how in reality, that isn’t the case at all. I’d love to share with him my story of enlightenment but I don’t think it will do any good. One has to realize this for oneself…
Self image.
Do you see yourself as you really are?
Christina Parisi 